I started practicing Kundalini Yoga during a time in my life when I was going through profound change and transformation spiritually. The exercises known as kriyas, breathwork and mantras offered me a great deal of clarity and healing in a way that nothing else had before. I was changing, transforming and healing.
As I started to deepen my practice I became acutely aware of an underbelly of toxic community that was surrounding this very healing practice. Efforts to control a person’s behavior and lifestyle, suggestions to students and aspiring teachers to change their name in order to fully start “living out their spiritual dharma”. Suggestions to women from other established women in the community that they must present a more “demure” way in public to “reinstate their dignity”. These aspects were repulsive to me and I came to realize yoga, just like religion, or anything else for that matter can lose its pure and helpful intention when put in the hands charismatic individuals seeking to gain fame, power and control.
I was in a dilemma. I found such powerful healing and transformation through the practice of Kundalini Yoga Kriyas and energy work of the practices that included mantra, breathwork and sound healing, but the practices and teachings I was often surrounded by were steeped in a toxic culture of control and rigid insistence toward blind conformity.
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